Resolve Update

Or, what I've been calling my resolve...a revolving door. My "feelings" which I am learning to trust less and less...and, that's a good thing! My feelings are like a revolving door...those damn feelings got me up and down, in and out of things. But, this past week has been much more consistent. So, that is good. And, for that, I am very thankful to the Lord. For He Alone can only help me through this craziness.

Trust only Truth...so glad that His Word is a Guide.

But, here are a few things that have been keeping me busy and distracted in a very good way.




Love....

resolve

Lord, be my Resolve.  I'm no good at it unless I have You doing the work.  And, even then, as You know, I suck at it.  I just kind of do what I wanna to do.  But, this time...I can't.  Do the work in me...



I need the sweet in life.



She's lost a few pounds so she thinks it's okay to post a pic of herself. 
She's delusional like that.



I just wanted to see how this pic translated to the blog from my phone.



Home Alone



So, I have this Japanese app that helps me do
all the bubbles/dots in my pics.  It's true that
I cannot understand Japanese.  All I know is that I LOVE the app!

Except without all the mischief of the Home Alone movies.  Well.  Sort of no mischief!  haha  I tease!!

I'm just glad to be home by myself.  If all I accomplish today is staring at the walls for a few hours, then my job is done!  I tease again.  :)  My major beef is always that my husband gets time on his days off with no one at home.  Just to be able to hear silence in a home that you work all damn day to have!  Thank you, Lord, of course, for the aforementioned home and job!  :)

Two days before Christmas though automatically means, equals stuff to do.  But, if I work out, shower, think about baking, wrap a couple of presents, look at the files that I brought home from work, pick up the kids from school, look (and, I mean, only look) again at those files, maybe bake, and maybe think about cooking dinner--I will have accomplished the world.  So, of course, with all that, I'm stealing some time with my blog.  Yeah.  Makes so much no sense!

In deeper news, I've been going through a soul-cleansing, a rebirth, if you will.  Not trying to get back to where I was.  But, moving ahead to a better place.  I've learned so much about myself.  I've been humbled too.  And, I love humility.  It's one of my favorite characteristics.  I'm a big believer in it.  I'm reminded of that verse that says Humble yourself in the sight of the Lord and He will lift you up.  And, since there is no up without Him, I only want Him lifting me up in this life.  It's a daily rebirth so it does not come easy but to know that He has not left my side and loves me still, despite me, is A MAY ZING!!  God is good is all I know.  :)



I'm majorly into cupcakes these days. 
It does not help my efforts in cutting my sugars. 
But, whatcha gonna do?  Something about living once, right?!?  :)

It's thrilling to still have a journey to walk, a lesson to learn so that I can hopefully be a help to someone else.  Something to pass onto these children of mine.  :)  Who, by the way, are precious.  Or, perhaps, extremely well-behaved since Santa [a.k.a. me] is on her way!  :)

Well, I better get going if I'm going to attempt to accomplish anything on the above meager list.  Thanks again, Blog.  You're sweet to let me babble.  You cool like that!  :)

For the one person who comes by ---> Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!  ::))

Preoccupied...

Here are my kids and some of their friends rolling down our tiny hill.

So preoccupied. That's the only way that I've been able to describe myself lately when I am speaking to a friend who I haven't spoken to in weeks. I say that I'm all over the place...which is to say--I feel out of control. But, I also feel that I can't say anything of why I'm out of control. So, I just try to shake it off and have a normal conversation. Yeah--nice try!

Anyway, this weekend has been good--trying to catch up with family and friends somewhat, laugh with my kids, and spend time with my husband. This is the week that my husband and I normally take off together to reconnect since our anniversary is not something we are really able to celebrate the way some do. Who has the time or money? We actually have only taken a couple of days off work. (Thanks to those early 2011 snow days...I was very short on vacay days.) But, they have been productive and fun days so surprisingly satisfying since I normally slack off for most of the week and try to cram it all in the last few days as documented here and here. I think there was an urgency to make every day count which, as can be imagined, I've completely impressed and surprised myself by my hard work and effort. :)



Omigosh--the fun that I've had with Faith! She is such a funny girl!! We have danced and laughed so much these couple of days. I love her so much. Her personality is really amazing to me. We are very cool girls that's all I know! :)



Well, my boy, Elijah, turned eight yesterday. There was only one thing to get him for his birthday. Mario Kart...I don't think that is a new Mario Bros. game but he likes the racing games and he only knows the old Mario Bros. games thanks to Daddy. So, I don't really want him to get to know the new stuff too much yet. So, that damn Mario Cart is expensive so we bought it as a community. Mommy, Daddy, Louise, Carol, and Faith all chipped in for the purchase. How else was I going to get Daddy to spend that kind of dough?!? ::)) I know what you're thinking--She's a genius!! haha

Elijah played the game for some of yesterday. But, in order to play the game today, he had to work on his math since he has not been doing well in math at school. So, this miracle happened this morning--Elijah is now a math genius since Mario Cart was waiting for him. Unbelievable this kid!! At 9 this morning, he's ready to work on his math!! He better do better in school is all that I have to say on that!

Well, Blog, other than that, all is well and the same around here. You know that I really appreciate getting to vent to you about once a year now. I blame that damn Facebook!! Really. :)

Psalm 119:55 NIV

"In the night, Lord, I remember Your name, that I may keep Your law."

I remember who You are--what You've done already in my life. That even in dark, difficult times, I will be able to find way to keep Your law, Your way in my life. I want to take heed to Your Word even in the difficult times. Difficult times, trying times are not an excuse to react badly. It's an opportunity. An opportunity to display Christ in my life. I have to continue to remember in those times--to remember who He is. Jesus is the Overcomer. The Holy Spirit is the Comforter. The Father is in control. ME, be a watcher of ways to keep God's Word on display in my life--to keep Christ on display in my life.

Vacation 2011